Sunday, February 10, 2019

Some People Feel More Than Others. Me.


Me. Green Eyes. No make-up. Naturally greying hair. Age spots. Emerging wrinkles. T-shirt.

Some people feel more than others.

People who feel more deeply and intensely than others are more aware of subtleties; their brain processes information and reflects on it more deeply. People with emotional intensity are sometimes described as sensitive, caring, and attentive. At their best, they can be exceptionally perceptive, intuitive, and keenly observant of the subtleties of the environment. Yet they are also overwhelmed by the constant waves of social nuances and others’ emotional and psychic energies. 
  • You experience emotions to an unusual level of depth, complexity, and intensity. This makes you feel incredibly alive, sometimes painfully so.
  • You have a constant stream of both positive and negative feelings, sometimes together, sometimes from one to another in a short period.
  • You are passionate, even if you do not show it on the outside. 
  • You tend to form strong emotional connections with people, places, and things, and sometimes that makes separation difficult.
  • However, being naturally open and sensitive also means you are vulnerable to relational injuries from a young age. Your natural tendency to be open and loving may get stunted due to early rejections and trauma.
  • Being perceptively gifted means you can sense and perceive things that others miss. With acute awareness, you can see beyond superficiality, grasp patterns and make linkages.
  • Insights, intuition, and the ability to read several layers of reality allow you to assess people and situations rapidly. You can sense incongruence and their intentions, thoughts, and feelings that are underneath the facades.
  • However, your abilities do not necessarily make life easy. You are bothered by hypocrisies and unfairness and struggle with inauthentic people and situations. You cannot help but be the one who points out the ‘elephant in the room’, but your perceptiveness may seem intimidating to those who felt ‘seen through’.
  • You have an innate urge to push the boundaries of conformity, to question or to challenge traditions, particularly those that seem meaningless or unfair. Paired with a strong sense of justice, you are often frustrated with corruptions and inequality in the world. 
  • Although this may indicate a challenging life path for you, you also have the potential to thrive as a visionary leader.
  • Intellectually, you are inquisitive and reflective. You have a strong need to seek to understand, to expand your horizons, to gain knowledge and to analyze your mental content.
  • With an ability to process information with speed and depth, you absorb and surge through information very quickly.  You are likely to be an avid reader and a keen observer.  You may appear critical and impatient with others who cannot keep up with you.
  • You also can integrate intellectual concepts with your deep feelings for original conceptions. You may have a constant stream of ideas, sometimes so many that you feel you cannot keep up with it.   
  • You tend to experience zealous enthusiasm about certain topics and endeavors. When you get excited about an idea, your mind runs faster than your words can keep up, or you find yourself talking rapidly, perhaps even interrupting others. 
  • You are highly capable of contemplative thinking and self-reflection. The flip side is that you may be occupied with obsessive thoughts, and scrupulous self- examination. You may also suffer from perfectionism and self-criticism.
  • You are extremely open-minded.
  • You might have felt frustrated that those around you were not prepared to discuss and consider weighty concerns.
  • Your existential angst may manifest as an unnamed sense of urgency, a constant impulse to move forward.  You get a constant ‘niggling’ feeling that there is something important that you should be doing, even when your vision is not clear yet.   You live with a feeling that somehow time is running out, and you are not doing what you should be doing. 
  • For some unnamed reason, you feel a weight of responsibility on your shoulder - even for things you are not responsible for. 
  • Your angst propels you to learn, to expand, and to advance in your life path, but it can also paralyze you.   You may be prone to creative blockages such as ‘artist’s block,’ ‘writer’s block,’ procrastination, the fear of exposure or the Imposter Syndrome (the feeling that you are a fraud).
  • Nevertheless, you have always known deep down that you are dissatisfied with a life that is meaningless and task-driven.
  • You may be a polymath, or a ’multipotentialite’ - someone with multiple interests and creative pursuits, and not just one calling. 
  • When you have a strong vision or innovative idea, you can feel the split between belongingness and authentic expression— you want to express with your full, authentic self but you are worried that it means being rejected, or leaving people behind.
“Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.'often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand.” —Margery Williams Bianco, The Velveteen Rabbit